I’m here, I’m strong

By Ingrid Cameron

I was awake in the morning, and went to look for my slippers and my brain, burst, blood. 

Next time, I was in the hospital, the General, they told us exploded, something exploded.

My mind is good before. I was, I was clever. The school, I was a teacher for history. And I also had speech for Denmark and German. And then when I went, me brain came out. I’ve lost, I’ve lost it all. 

And it is sometimes my brain, I’m “yes” but for some reason it comes out of the mouth. Because I asked the doctor and showed no hair and he said, because I asked him, “why is sometimes it is right, but by the time I open my mouth, it’s wrong.” He says “when I, the surgeon does all that, something goes wrong. “

Before that I never went to the doctor, I never nothing, except have babies. But apart from that, nothing.

Now, for reason I have memory, sometimes, I feel as if my brain….even today….its…..I’m not with you and what’s really annoying because I can try it and help it, but other people do not. They don’t. They see me like this and say, “well, you’re alright.”

They never understand.

And this is going on for 21 and for the first 2 years, I wanted to die because I wasn’t walking, I couldn’t speak. I haven’t got a job and I thought, it’s all gone.

But after 2 years, I thought “what the hell, do something.” And I’m working to walk again.

But I have to tell me to be better.

Oh hey! But look at it this way….. At least I’m not dying. Stupid, but still alive.

Me husband and me son and he said, “I’m awake, alright, but I’m telling you, you’ll never walk.” And it’s funny really because me husband turned round and said, “But you don’t know Ingrid.” Well he got quite annoyed, the doctor. He said “I am the doctor, not you, and I’m telling her she can’t walk.”

Well, it took a long time.

You’ve got to do it yourself and that’s why I get annoyed because I’m doing it, especially when I have an odd day and I’m bad.

I must be strong. 

Both me mam and dad, he was in the Navy, Danish Navy and he was very very strong, very. And I think that’s the reason because they are very strong and it’s automatic.